When One Door Closes…

Bisbee BlueIt’s been quite a week…the world seems such a very  fragile place to me right now. I know it’s a combination of things. Today is the first anniversary of my Dad’s death. He was a difficult man with many demons, including drink and gambling…but I never once doubted that he loved me and that is something, isn’t it?

Bisbee Window 4He was mostly absent (in oh so many ways) in my life but he was a man of his word, generous to a fault with his friends, and never a whiner.  He loved cars and could tell by just listening what was the matter and the best way to fix them…a lost art these days with electronic computers on board every car. He just finally ran out of gas…Gas Pump Bisbee He was a dinosaur that life passsed by and made obsolete.

When I was in Bisbee I saw some wonderful old vehicles I know he would have loved… Old Junker 2Old Junker 3Old Junkerand it made me miss him keenly and wish I hadn’t let all the old crap get in the way of spending more time with him as he aged and found himself ill and alone. Sigh…shoulda, woulda, coulda…And then I started thinking about all those old adages…”When One Door Closes…Another Opens” and all that…Old Bisbee DoorsI always tend to open all the windows and doors in my life…and, no matter what, keep certain doors slightly ajar just in case there is some chance for reconciliation or a welcome new insight…Bisbee Door Ajar          But sometimes life just throws you a curve and the window closes Bisbee Window 2before you can get the door open…and you get caught between worlds suddenly, stuck. Bisbee Door 3

This week my Beloved AlbertBeloved & Gusis ill and in pain and I feel so helpless and concerned that I can’t be a better nurse and more comfort to him. I’ve had to reschedule classes, amend appointments, shift “to dos” until later, disappoint some folks…but I realized this morning that I have allies and friends who have offered their love and support–thank you to Marnie & Berta & Ann & Lucy & Karen & my Altered Art Divas and the whole, lovely gaggle of friends who have stepped up to offer us good cheer and loving hugs! Thank you!

And I have a very strong, calm, deep spiritual center that I can go to…a place of light and hope and ancient wisdom that comforts me!GoddessRadiant HeartI know that things will be okay…the souls of all the little children swept up in the tornado in Oklahoma will find peace…Child Angelwhen they enter the tiny fairy doors at the base of trees so that they can continue to grow and flower in a safe, comforting place…Fairy Tree

And, I too will be okay…my Beloved will heal, the sun Sun Wallwill come out, and my heart will be full of love and light again soon. Gardens Window 1Thanks for hangin’ in there with me while I pry open this last door…Window Bisbeeto let the gentle breeze come in and sweep out the worry! Much Love & Gratitude From KaitlinBisbee Gardens MosiacCopyright, Kaitlin Meadows, 2013. All Rights Reserved.

Bisbee Bound!

Summer already!!!????

How can that be. It’s hardly May yet! It’s crazy–I live in Tucson, Arizona, and I HATE the heat! I’m Irish and prefer cool, lush, green forests full of singing creeks and mossy meadows. I LOVE the beach and the sea and all things water. How did I end up in the Sonoran desert? (It’s a long, complicated story–remind me to tell you about it sometime.)

Sooo, you ask, how am I able to navigate 100 degree days for months on end? How do I manage to make art and teach classes and have friends and wrangle the daily chores of life in the HEAT? I escape now and then to a beautiful, historic, mountain town a couple of hours away for a day or two of cooooool weather  and super cool fun! Bisbee is a swell place to take a wee respite.  Garden's GateWe stay at a marvelous B & B called The Gardens…sooo peaceful and each room is a delightful blend of funky and quaint!   Rainbow Shrine I love the mediatitaion area and often have really amazing insights just sitting in the cool, rainbowed light from the glass, listening to the fountains, letting the mind monkeys take a break! Sanctuary

We walk around the narrow streets full of art galleries and interesting shops, thrift stores and bookshops, and historic buildings. The Bisbee Mine and Historical Museum is fabulous and the Queen Mine has exciting tours. We linger at lots of little cafes for delicious coffee, scrumptious pasteries, and, of course–my favorite–people watching!

The great news about The Gardens is that they allow pets and our dog Gus LOVES it and can walk around town with us (on a leash) and have a vacation too!

Gus In Bed

Before you leave Bisbee–you gotta check out Dot’s Diner and the little trailer court next to it! I dream of getting a funky old trailer of my own, fixing it all up in vintage charm, and traveling around to visit friends all over the country…ending up in some mythic old trailer court two blocks from Ocean Beach in California! Hey….a woman can dream! Welcome To Dot's Diner