Life is certainly a fascinating journey!
Just about the time you think you have a handle on it, there’s another freak rain storm and you realize you’ve forgotten your umbrella!
I was pretty danged sure I was almost, not quite, kinda-sorta, practically WELL again, thank you very much!
And then, BAM! knocked off my feet in another of Mr. Toad’s mad tumbles.
If this sort of stuff is “character building”–I’m officially now QUITE the character!
Flat on my back, feeling like the universe inexplicably double-crossed me again, I could have chosen to stay down this time. Just give it up. Let it all go.
But there’s a wild Irish warrior woman who lives inside my soul and she’s still, apparently, got a lotta livin’ to do.
She just WOULDN’T allow me to cash it in yet.
Seems she’s got BIG plans for me.
Love to share, friends to enjoy, art to make, LIFE to LIVE.
So, I got back up and I decided to
Sure I was scared.
Sure, for a moment there, I was pissed.
Sure I thought
how can this rickety old heart
keep going with soooo many setbacks?
How can I keep bouncing back?
What if, this time, I just can’t?
Well, heck. I gotta.
Too many people have loved and cared and been there for me.
Too many people have told me I could.
Too many people want to keep on hangin’ out at the Creative Cottage with me.
Too many people have been praying for me.
This is what I realized about myself:
There’s still work to be done.
There’s still joy & love & good tidings to share.
So I’m NOT giving up.
I’m NOT quitting.
I’m NOT gonna let this get me down.
So, I have a battered old heart.
So, I’m old and crotchety.
So, my stamina is mostly gone and my focus is a little blurry.
So I ain’t no spring chick.
I can still love and laugh and celebrate joy and make mischief and LIVE!
I just gotta “keep on keepin’ on”
one day at a time,
minute by minute,
with as much gratitude and wonder and courage as I can muster.
I gotta keep at the task of being fully human,
and not a little scared by the way the world is going.
All I can do is hold my corner of it up.
All I can do is to stand for love,
work for peace,
and lavish myself in gratitude for every danged breath I still have.
So here I go, back in the swing, up in the air,
ready for the next chapter!
Thanks for keeping me in your hearts,
for trusting that I wouldn’t give up,
and for being there,
on the other side of the dark & scary places,
with your own love & laughter & eagerness to LIVE!
Let’s “keep on keepin’ on” TOGETHER!
Holding each other UP,
sharing each other’s tears,
celebrating each other’s victories,
and healing each other’s heart break.
here is my hand,
With Love and Gratitude,
Mistress of Merriment
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