Life. Love. Family. Politics.
Work. Friends. Responsibilities. Politics.
Health. Sanity. Projects. Politics.
One way or the other,
Never a dull moment!
I know you’ve been worried about me.
Calling…e-mailing…wondering what’s up with Kait.
Well, it’s certainly been interesting times….
I think you’ll agree.
The shock & awe takes a daily toll.
It’s hard not to be pulled under.
Some days I manage to stay afloat
only by sheer will & gumption.
Mostly, I’m just hangin’ in here
because I’m determined
NOT to give up…
on peace…on love…on kindness…on miracles!
I’ve seriously had to recalibrate my life…
since the heart attack,
since the election,
since I began to understand
that a huge shift
was happening in my life.
I needed to pull in,
and try to figure out
how the heck
to move forward again.
I learned that
So, for the last couple of weeks
I’ve been trying to find my way:
looking for signs,
reading tea leaves,
taking the pulses
of our times.
I’ve been confused…
and holding my breath.
That’s been my healing balm.
That is why I haven’t managed to write a blog post
or conjure a March schedule
of Cottage classes and events.
I’ve been out of touch.
I’m still a little
bruised & battered.
But here’s the good news:
I made it through the strict six month probation period since the heart attack!
There was great concern among the docs that I might not bounce back at all.
But with the loving care of my Beloved Albert
and your beautiful friendship,
I am very gratefully still here!
Mind you, I’m not a 100%
and I’ve been warned
that I will never be again,
but I’m trying to get used to operating
at about 50% (with naps).
It’s been sooooooo humbling.
As you know,
I’m used to running at 150%!
More good news: I’ve gained a whole new respect
for healthy boundaries
and unapologetic self-care.
I’m really learning to prioritize
what really matters!
So, this is just a little note
to let you know
I’ll be unplugged
for another week please.
I’m gonna stay home with Sweetie
and do some more healing and enjoying.
Talk among yourselves.
Cultivate all the joy you can.
Know that I am sending such love
(AND a big, goofy KaitieBug grin!)
I’ll be back.
Please hold my place in your lives.
Take very good care of yourselves.
P.S. Such happy memories of my sister Kim’s visit and so glad so many of you got to spend magical, creative time with her. She’s a huge part of my heart! Next blog post full of pictures and stories from our high-jinx together!
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